Hello, my lovely friends!
It’s been quote the couple of days and months to be honest. I’ve told you some things here and there the past month and I have to admit I’ve kept a really big part of what’s going on from you all. So, this blog I’m going to bare my soul to you all.
You all know the problems that I’ve been going through with my online friend that we’re no longer friends. My emotions and depression has come in full force. I’ve allowed some demons that have been sitting dormant for so long. So, I threw away years of sobriety and fell off the wagon. I have been having a drinking pretty much every night. It started with a wine cooler, then a glass of wine and then it went to a bottle of wine. Less than two weeks ago I had seven margaritas and a bottle of wine in three hours. I knew this was a problem and the next day decided to end the madness and go to my first AA meeting in years.This is why the blogs have been all over the place and sometimes not at all. I haven’t had a drink since that time and have went to an AA meeting every day.
So, this is what has been going on with me this past month. I’m so sorry I failed and let things fall apart and I’m truly sorry. I’m doing good right now and feeling good about everything that is going on. I’m working my program and not looking back.
What does this mean for the blog? You know I’m not going anywhere, but there will be some changes. I can no longer do six days a week, its too much for me right now. I can do five days a week. I will take Wednesdays and Saturdays off. Thank you for understanding this. I love you ladies and again, I’m sorry.
Thank you so much for stopping by.
I wish you a good morning, afternoon or evening wherever you are.
Until next time… Adios!
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It is not failure to recognize and face a problem; that is called success. ODAT, my friend.
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Thank you for that, Jeanne! I'm just take it ODAT like you said. Again, thank you so much.
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Exactly and you saw it pretty quickly in the path of life. Some do not see it for years, some never, you got help and took the steps you needed to. Huge hugs and much love my friend and God bless.
ReplyDeleteThanks you for that Allie. I'm just doing it day by day and hope that the next day is better than the previous one.
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My dear, thank goodness you have the courage to face your demons and wen tto your meeting. There is so much strength to be gained! Proud of you. The only thing you’d have to feel sorrow about or regret is if you DIDN’T face your demons and return to your room. Failure would be NOT acknowledging the need and NOT going.
ReplyDeleteAnd good for you for setting your personal boundaries fitting in with what you can handle. You’re not letting anyone down! You are taking care of YOURSELF, and that’s a priority. In my own life, I have seen it too many times . . . someone sees a problem/challenge (be it alcohol, gambling, substance abuse or mental health challenges) and are too embarrassed to face it, so the problem isn’t taken care of. Life is full of so many challenges –everyone has them- and the only way to live life is to handle them!
Blessings to you, my dear. Proud of you. One day @ a time.
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Barb
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Thanks you so much, Barb. I'm just upset with myself that I couldn't deal with all of this in a normal way. I know better and should have dealt with things in a better way. I'm just doing each day as it comes and that's all I can do.
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