I Need to Explain...

 

"Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." 

(From A.A. Milne's Winnie the Pooh)

 

Hello, my lovely friends!

 

          So, I think you all have noticed that I have taken many days off from blogging over the past month and I think I owe you all an explanation about why. I think you know some of the things that are going on, but not everything. Grab a cup of coffee or tea because this is quite the story.

 

          My friend that left Twitter/X has been back a couple of times and each time it ends in an agreement between the two of us. Before he left we never argued about anything, but that final week I can’t even count how many we got into. So, he left and I went on with my Twitter world with my online fam there and the guy I’m talking with. Things were fine and great, but then two weeks ago Nige showed up in my DMs. I had left two messages one for Christmas and the other for New Years, just wishing him the best. He wished the same thing back. We started talking and that turned into another fight. I got really upset and went on a posting rampage complaining about how it’s unfair to walk in and out of a person life without thinking of their feeling. I talked about my feeling should be validated too. He wasn’t happy about that tweet, but I never once said his name. He left and was gone for another week until last Friday.

 

          On Thursday it was a great day there. Lots of interaction with friends all day and night. We had a great time, but late that night Nige popped in. Within minutes he started with me. I know it would be easy to not talk to him or even block him, but I am stubborn and won’t back down. This is the worst argument we’ve ever had. He said a lot of horrible things to me and by Friday morning I was done. I made an announcement on my page that I was considering leaving her for good and have a lot to think about over the weekend. I have the best friends there because so many we’re telling me not to go and how much they would miss me. On Saturday night he came back and yep we started again at it. He said he could never forgive me for the post, but yet wants forgiveness for the crap he said to me. I finally said that I was done with it all. I told him good bye and left the conversation.

 

          On Sunday, I was talking to the “guy” and he said I should block him because he’ll always have the upper hand in things. I did block him finally. I’ve decided to stay because I have too many good friends and have a great time there. It was an emotionally month for me. It took so much out of me that I had no energy to do much. I was barley functioning normal, wasn’t sleeping much, and just being blah. This is why there have been many days without a blog because I was drained. Now that its over I’m going to get back to normal.

 

Thank you so much for stopping by.

I wish you a good morning, afternoon or evening wherever you are.

Talk soon…