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Sunday, February 23, 2025

Same Thing Over and Over Again


 "Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave." (Mary Tyler Moore)

 

Hello,my lovely friends!

 

     The snow's playing a vanishing act, a fleeting white whisper against the thaw. But don't stow your mittens just yet! Next weekend a dusting is on the horizon, a gentle reminder that winter still holds the stage. And let's be honest, March? That's when the snow really throws its best party. So, while the landscape breathes a sigh of relief, remember, we're just hitting the reset button on moisture, not the spring countdown.

 

     Okay, confession time: my house is officially staging an intervention. It's been a while since the carpets saw the light of day, and the drapes are practically whispering, 'Clean me.' So, this week, Operation Spring Cleaning is a go! Since 'travel' currently means a trip to the fridge, we might as well make our home a place we actually love hanging out in. Plus, we've been dreaming up some changes – you know, finally making this place ours. And speaking of dreams, I have this whole plan for the den. It's currently a 'Dad's stuff/random junk' zone, but I want to turn it into my mom's art studio. She's always talking about painting and creating, but she's the queen of putting herself last. I'm determined to make her a space that screams 'You deserve this!

 

   Mom's pain is a rollercoaster, up and down, a daily struggle against a cocktail of meds, now including cannabis gummies. It's a hard pill to swallow, literally and figuratively, for her to see me going into a dispensary. But they work, and that's what matters. I've seen improvements, moments of clarity and ease, but then the pain strikes again, a cruel reminder. It's tough seeing her like this. I'm just hoping this current surge is finally subsiding, for her sake and mine. It's a weight on my shoulders, a constant worry in the back of my mind. I try to be strong for her, to offer a smile and a comforting presence, but sometimes it's hard. I see the toll it takes on her, the way it steals her joy and energy. But she's a fighter, my mom. She never gives up, always searching for a way to manage the pain, to reclaim some semblance of normalcy. And I'll be right there beside her, every step of the way, offering my support and love.


 Thank you for stopping by! Wishing you a day/evening/morning filled with sunshine, laughter, and perhaps a little bit of magic. Until next time, ta-ta for now!

 

5 comments:

  1. You are such a thoughtful daughter! I do hope the plans for your mom's "play space" can be put in place without a lot of disruption. Good for your mom, going beyond the familiar to try and find "what works". And good for you being by her side. Please carve out some self-care / respite 'cause Paula has needs, too.

    Wishing you a bright "Spring clean"! Yes, that little bit of magic! ((( hugs )))

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  2. Wishing you all the very best on your spring cleaning/purge. Hubby and I now set a week for each room that way we don't over-do and if it takes less or more that is fine too. Take good care my friend and huge hugs to both of you.

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  3. Spring cleaning seems to help clean our mental house, too. There's something about a clean house that's calming. There are all kinds of articles about the benefits of ridding a home of clutter. For me, just washing the windows, inside and out, makes it seem like a new house. Have fun with the changes and updating.
    Good wishes for you and your mom. 🤗💖

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  4. Yes, our snow is vanishing, too. NOT terribly quickly, but enough to be noticeable.

    Oh I bet your Mom would LOVE having her own art studio space! That’s an awesome plan for the den.

    YES! You know, when it comes down to pain control, it’s all about whatever works for your Mom. It’s good you’re her support, and it’s good she’s a fighter!

    DH is dealing w/ a lot of pain, too. And for sure, it’s all about whatever works and encouraging him to keep fighting. It’s hard to watch a loved one in pain. But, we do what we can for them!

    HUGS and blessings

    Barb
    1cd

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  5. It's Kathy. I love that you are starting Operation Spring Cleaning. That's also on my radar. I'm not quite healed enough to dive in head first, but I can do some things, a little bit at a time. I am so sorry that your mom is still struggling. I know only too well how hard it is to live in constant pain. I also know how important it is to be supportive of your mom, the way you are. My husband has been great but sometimes, and I don't really blame him, he gets kind of tired of my pain! You are giving your mom a great gift by being kind and understanding of what she is going through! It's melting here too and I love it but yes, March has yet to come!

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